The Me I Hope To Be Part 1.....

The Me I Hope To Be Part 1....

This post is all about amazing ourselves, making changes, reaching goals, and transforming our minds and bodies!

Most days this is me....

I'm most often disorganized (well most often organized chaos)

I'm most often forgetful (can't find my sunglasses that I just put on my head)

I'm most often spread thin (no explanation necessary...we all are!)

I can get overwhelmed.

I hurry.

I struggle daily with being mindful.

I've never actually put laundry in the oven but it's not as far fetched as it sounds.

Today was the exception..

Today I was together. Fancy. Happy. Calm. Kind. Positive. Patient. Grateful. In control.

I was all of this....

I was up and out early at school by 7:45

Paperwork and classroom updates before the kids came in at 9:00

Young Author Day

Times where I was proud to be part of an amazing school team

Pick up kids

Make dinner (so not the norm)

Drop to baseball

Drop to School of Rock

Watch some baseball

Pick up at School of Rock

Watch some more baseball

Get kids home and clean

Clock check.

8:45

And then I PUSHED PLAY!

I. PUSHED. PLAY. FOR. THE. 60TH. CONSECUTIVE. DAY!

Everyone knows that Domenic typically keeps his cape hidden under his clothes.
That we make this wild life work by leaning on each other and sharing the chaos.
Tonight was one of those nights I needed to tackle on my own since he had school graduation!

More transformations in part 2....

When Perfect Is Not Possible

When Perfect Is Not Possible....

When Perfect Is Not Possible....

Which is never!

I have this idea of perfect. This idea of how's things are "supposed" to go. This way of how I want them, how I've planned them, what I've prepared, what I'm anticipating. And it's not always "perfect" that I'm looking or preparing for. But it never makes the outcomes different when things don't quite work out the way I want.

Let's be honest...

I'm a chick, a mom, a wife, sister, friend. And I'm loved and needed.

I have 3 amazing sons who are 2, 6, and 10 who have their own things going on and who often need their momma.

I work full time as a special teacher for kids for with special needs. And days and moments don't always go as planned!

I have a wonderful husband who is my team mate in all things life! 

And I'm working on me! Trying to be the best ME I can be. 

Trying to be healthy, and strong, and organized, and calm, and patient, while still dreaming and chasing goals.

AND. IT. IS. NOT. EASY.

And when 1 thing goes wrong or off plan, I crack. 

And I have to force myself to not feel like a failure. 

Because in my head, sadly I have 2 stages...

Perfection

And

Failure

And I know there is so much more!

I just have trouble seeing it.

And living it.

And I need to try harder. 

I'm working on it!

Because I don't want it to kill 

my skill, 

my spark, 

my art, 

my soul!

Here's to be excellent! Not perfect!